Sunday, December 03, 2006

A Still Presence

Psalm 46:10-11
Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! The Lord of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

Motion. We get so caught up in it. It takes over our lives, pulling us along like puppets on a string. We feel obligated to move, pressured to always be doing something, saying the right things, acting properly. We drive ourselves into the ground trying to keep up with our perceived paradigms, but we never really know if we are doing it the right way. How much have we missed on account of this near constant motion?

I have been finding more and more that our God is not always a God who requires motion. He often draws me to be still, restful, quiet...perfectly at one with Him. It has been taught time and again that the Sabbath is holy and vital. My personal belief is that it is not a concept that is only to be infused into one day a week, but every day. Our lives should be filled with little Sabbaths...times where we are still and quiet, listening to God speak or simply being with Him.

Presence is a powerful thing. Just being with someone can bring a healing that nothing else could match. It is connection and fellowship in its truest form. My mom got into a major car accident this past March. I was 1,000 miles away at school and had no reasonable way of getting home. It grated on me knowing she was in such great pain and I had no way to touch her, hold onto her, sit by her bed and make her laugh...I finally saw her in late June when she visited me in Nashville. It was simply incredible. I nearly fell to pieces when she came down the escalator at the airport. This is what I had needed all those months we were apart...to hug her and talk with her and get chai with her and literally see that she was alright.

This very concept is what I miss so many days. I get weary and hurt, but then I withdraw and avoid everyone, including God. I try to fill myself with distractions that leave me emptier than when I began. It may seem obvious, but I realized recently that what I really need is to draw close to Him. Isolation is an unhealthy and dangerous thing. Indeed there are times where I need to be away from others...but never from God. Never.

I am learning to live my life in a way that I fervently defend our secret place together, that time where just He and I are there. I know the things that I need to do to sensitize myself to Him. I know what ways I connect to Him. It is simply a matter of weaving it into my lifestyle, one step at a time, until I am saturated with Him. Then, and only then, do I understand what it means to walk with Him.

Selah.

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