Maybe I...

This is a song I wrote quite some time ago. It was written out of one of the hardest times in my life, but God definitely used that time to teach me some quite dynamic life lessons. Once I get the music recorded, I might get brave and put it up as an audio post.

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Maybe I’m lonely
When I look into the sky
Am I all together?
Maybe I’m barely getting by

But I can’t escape it
No matter how far I run, how hard I fall
I won’t escape it
This beating of my heart
I’m still alive

Maybe I’m honest
When I see the truth behind the lie
Maybe I realize
Just how far from home I’ve been

Could I hear Your voice
If You were calling out to me
Would I come running
Into Your embrace

No, I won’t escape You
No matter how far I run, how hard I fall
You’re closer than my skin
You’re where I am
And I’m still alive

Maybe tomorrow
Is a new beginning
Every sunrise
I’ll learn to breathe You in

5-30-06 (revised)
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(c) 2006 Rachel Wegner

Idol Madness

Oh Lord we cast down our idols...

I'll admit it. I got sucked into watching the American Idol finale. I found myself thinking, "Man, the world makes things like this look good." And for a moment, I almost bought into the hype. I can see why over 200 million people were watching tonight. Not that I'm intending to Idol bash, because I do think it is an opportunity for lesser known individuals to compete, and interesting to watch. There have been many talented people that have braved that stage. But the whole premise of someone (or something) being proclaimed an "idol" has never sat well with me.

What's wrong with our society? Every time I try to compile a list and give insight, inevitably I find the finger pointing back at myself. Sin nature has left us all broken and prone to wander away from the One who created us and pursues us with every moment. The fall of man was no small event and we are all affected by it as we struggle to overcome our worldly desires and pursue the things of God.

So beyond all the incredible production and lights and fanfare, after the hundreds of millions of eyes that watched the finale tonight turn their attention to the next big thing, and when we are left with just ourselves and the quiet of a night...what can we speak for? Fame can be a very empty thing. Happiness seems most elusive to those who are at the top. I always wonder how people live life without God and call themselves fulfilled. And I'm thinking "What about that gaping hole you've been ignoring for all these years?"

Sin has numbing power. We've all experienced it. I've seen this numbness take over the lives of several people who have been close to me (and some who have come back around to tell the story of redemption.) It makes us forget how desperately we need God, the One whose image we were created in, the only One who can truly lead us down the path we were meant to be on. No television show could provide that for someone, this is for certain.

Maybe I'm preaching to the choir (or just to myself, now that I think of it.) But all I know is that my passion is stirred even more for the hearts of this nation. Granted I do want to see as much of this world as I can, what good are if we can't reach those right next to us?

God let us be a generation that seeks Your face, O God of Jacob...

Homesick

I really miss

And left for the Philippines today. I reckon I won't see him til fall, at the earliest.

needs to get her bootooshkey to Nashville so we can "do Music City" together.

Sometimes life can be a big huge that runs circles around you, laughing and throwing dung.

I miss home. What I'd give to see a

Or to enjoy the simplicity of

But I'm happy where I am. (I'd take a picture of it but Coty STILL has my digital...*cough cough*). I love my internship at CCM and I am learning many things from the people and places I am around. I just really, really want to land a part time job by Monday. Is that too much to ask?

Hm. Let's just said my faith is being stretched. And so are my "meeting people" skills. I thank God that He is faithful...and that He has showed me that I am in the center of His will.

Love to all.
*Rach*

~all photos by me (with the exception of the monkey-I wish!)~

Starting Out

I do believe this is the start of something new. It has been a long day and, though I have much in my heart and mind to express, I know better than to try to articulate it at this point. I fear it would only come out as typo-laden rambling, full of big words and inconsistencies. (See! There it was! A moderately big word!)

Alas, I will post more later. Take care.